2010

In retrospect to last year, I feel strange cause i don't quite remember anything clearly. It seems to me like a year where I was very absent minded,vague memories, voices pretty distant. It reminds me of a movie going on while I just try to remember what happened last..

I know there were moments which have marked milestones in my life..Moments when I could swear I'd never forget-- moments of ultimate euphoria. There have been new friendships which have strengthened themselves with silly jokes,funny lines,sarcasm,love,fights. I know these friendships will be remembered through out.. A lifetime.

There have been sadness engulfed with incompetency screaming and tearing my mind.

But also,there have been times and again, when I've realized I stand as someone distinct with eyes that meet yours. Who is confident,standing upright,positive about herself and what she holds.

I have seen the real people under their masks this last year,today- I can count my closest friends on my fingers- I couldn't be more proud about the fact. I know who stand by me, I know who will.

2009 has made me witness affection from people I least expected to. I have confided in people,who don't even know my address. I have encountered times where my loyalty and honesty were to be proven by myself,and I have the remembrance of my worst days and hours.

I have memories of smiles-that cheered me up, of silly dances during classes which would crack me up laughing,of taking cases of the loser-group along with a close friend [;)]... I have so many memories--now that I think of it..

I didn't dream much this year, when I slept-I slept dreamless hours of sleep. At times,reality was so appalling that my escape became ignorance. But...also that truth; the reality that surfaced gradually,was bravely accepted by me and can be proud that within time I welcomed them as they are; without efforts of forging them or anything.

I'm proud of myself for that.

I have written so many parts of my life in fictious short stories and poems this year that people have appreciated and applauded for the courage of boldness and transparency in them. Thank you all of you for that. I wouldn't have published/shared them ever if I wasn't encouraged by people like you.

In the end,no matter how blurr my memories of '09 might have seemed,I know I've lost and won many battles..And all of then have kissed me Goodbye to push me towards a brighter daylight to realize myself a bit more,and more, and to truly exist in my full capacity for the many more years to come.

:)

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Here are short msgs for all of you Blogger Buddies!

Remya: Babe,thanks for being there when it was really needed :) There were things I couldn't have done without you... Thanks for standing right there,always. All my love.

Rohaan & Mrill: I effing love you guys. Seriously, you guys make my day complete after the crazy conversations!

Charu: Dear,thank you for appreciating and acknowledging my work so much. It's been lovely to be friends with you :)

Sequira: I miss you (: Happy new year!

Ramit: Oh my god,you make me want to blog =D Hugs!

Dipti: I love your blog:) Keep blogging!!

Ric: Dude,it's been awesome knowing you. It has!

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UjSen: Thank youuuuu for Reading my blog and mailing me feedbacks about my stuff when i really need it!

Fai: You've inspired a new way of writing. Good going :)

Pranav: Happy new year you! Kaha hai?!

Twisted elegance: Miss you on blogger! C'mon,say cheese to being regular this year! ;)

Rahul: I sure do pray for your new life [;)] to be magical and beautiful.

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Manjari,Sid,Liza Rego,Celestial devil,Ashley Brown: Thanks for followin' my blog, you guys:)

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Yes, I think that covers it all :P

A happy new year to all of you,

and may god bless :)

Love you all.

Nil (: