every step we take is so measured, everywhere we look is so careful, every word that comes out has been filtered in the mind thrice...... I'm sorry guys, but I'm just really pissed off.
I don't get it anymore-- I tried my best. And I conclude that I can't get it.
Every one is so concerned about everything happening around them. Everybody is in a persuite to fit in. No matter how many times I tried to figure out why, I just got one answer -- Insecurity.
Why is everyone so insecure? Do they think they'll be 70yrs old and not have anyone to hold on too? Can't they get it that if we keep being so careful about each breath we let out, everything is just gonna look like a perfectly sewn life-- when it'll be horribly Not Perfect.
I'm in class 10th. I am an exteremly chilled out person, emotional- yes. But practical and rational. I hope.
I trust myself, I know I can do well.
But do any of those lines above help if every day I'm reminded of the competetion outside? does it not crample up my confidence? Does it help further to give me the look that says "You have to do better" when someone hears about one of my freak sisters getting a 93% in boards?
Maybe I'm just really frustrated right now, and hence I am writing such a post..... But it's not just about Boards, or education guys. Look around you.
Look at 3 people around you in a market. Do any of them have the gutts to open their t-shirts and dance around publicly? No. And I am not saying that just because people don't do that means they don't have gutss, Nu-uh.
What I mean to say is, ever thought about Why they wouldn't do something like that?
Is it because they don't feel like doing it?
Or is it because they're too scared about what the people around them would say?
The answer is Unmistakably the 2nd one. Sadly,too.
If you disagree with me, I'b be happiest. But that sad truth is, out of a population of say- 100,
99 want to to what the beaten track teaches them.
They're all scared cause in our "so-called-society" , people who choose to be/act different, are called "Mad Men".
Yes, that's the name our society has given to unique poeple.
I've been through it, and hell I can bet, each and every one of you-- if any day you guys did something different, even when you thought no one was looking, 5 people must have thought "what? is he mad?"
I'm sorry for such a deppressing post friends,
but it's just something that has been building in me since a long time.
Now, the only answer I see -- when the "society" says anything to me is
Second me ?