Things are not the same anymore, you and I aren't. Our hearts aren't, our brains no more working parallel.
The bright day has slowly creeped into a silent strand of sunshine.. It still is sunshine, though. It can never be dark, when it's you, sweetheart.
But only love is not enough. I would have disagreed violently to that, but today, I don't. I don't because so much more matters, because love fades when those vital organs of that soul- that complete body- are missing.
Some say, how does all that matter?
But I say, how is it love if they don't?
You were like this sudden blast of annoying light into my usual life, someone I absolutely hated the first time I met. You were so goddamn confident about yourself, you knew you could charm anyone by that pissing off-ly beautiful crooked smile of yours. You were such a stealer, and I hated your over confidence.
I didn't want to meet you again. Your arrogance somehow over ruled my confidence. There was something so attractive about that careless confidence and flawless self of yours. I never wanted to meet you again.
But I did.
I did, each and every day after that. And I realized you were such an over confident jerk in the outside, but oh my god, you were beautiful in the inside. You pretended to be a dude, when you were nothing close to that as a person. You tried to hide that intellect that screamed out of your eyes, but they couldn't escape me even on the first day we met.
You became a friend. And slowly someone a little closer. Someone I wanted to see every damn day cause you just brought out the wild side of me. You made me that crazy wild girl I used to be, you brought out the enigma in me. Every day of that summer vacation was a memory that's inescapable. We'd see each other every morning, tour around Delhi, eat like pigs, run like dogs, and return sweat stained late in the evening.
I loved having you around, I loved it so much that I didn't want to think about anything else.
We spoke about black ambassadors when you told me how you felt for me, and the next day wasn't awkward. We were still the best of friends, and that's why I never thought twice before meeting you even after I knew about you feeling for me.
I kept you hanging for so long. For so bloody long. And you kept hanging,
I finally admitted to myself, you charmed me. You charmed me and I had fallen bad for you. After that, we both know what happened. But before anything, you were my best best friend.
I couldn't feel better, could there be anything better than having that special person as your best friend?
We were so random, we were so bloody wild. We didn't care a damn and went on being kids....
What now? Why aren't we kids anymore? Why can't I talk to you anymore? Why are there so many "but" and "ifs" now?
I don't remember you anymore. I don't remember the guy I fell in love with. Cause you've lost yourself to so many other things, so many things that were immaterial before. So many things that you and I used to laugh at, together.
Does time do this?
I've let go off you, we're never to cross paths again, trust me. I've let go off you, but I'll live in my world with your memories which are nothing but beautiful. I will be fine, I will be just what I used to be, 2 years back, back to my wildness and flaws. I'll forget that I evolved.
What I'll never forget is, what you turned me into. What I'll never forget is, your memories which are too evident in my common human brain, and which are engraved deep deep down into my heart. What I'll never forget is, the feeling of knowing that pure feeling to have had fallen in love. And that unconditional love that my soul held for you, and always will.
And I'll never forget how my heart smiled, everytime your music was in the air.