Since the 15 years of my not very old life,I have always tried to imitate you, consciously/subconsciously- I don't quite know. When my brothers used to call me the 'Chela' and you the 'Guru' I always used to give them a proud smile,because somehow,what I felt was never offense at being called your 'Chela'- but always a boastful pride that took those mockeries like huge compliments. I was a kid,still am,and always will be-around you. No matter how old I might get,I'll always be the foolish sister who you have to guide at each step, no matter how obvious the right thing might be to the eye.
I have always come running to you with my tears,my anxieties,fears,happiness,hopes and dreams. I have always bored you with my unstoppable rantings about my childhood crushes. I always confided in you the darkest sides of myself,of my experiences. You knew my flip sides,and you never boasted about knowing me the best.
You told me about growing up,the complexities,the hardships,the fun,the joys. You knew when the time was right,I'll remember your words,and sigh relief that I had someone who cared.
You once messaged me that my connection with you is what one feels after a pinch-instant and immediate. You defined the strong threads of our relationship so well,in a mere few words-I thought that day. I smiled to myself. You make me feel like a child,no matter how wannabe-old I might want to act at times.
Today,when I read your blog, realization struck me. The way those simple words of your's let out the simplest and one of the most important messages in life was magical. I realized then,that all through out my life-that's exactly what you've been doing. The simple advices,and the mere conversations have always left a trivial or a huge lesson of life-for me to heed and understand. My gratitude,today is something inexpressible. My vocabulary deceives me,today-as I strive to find words that might reflect even a quarter of my love and respect for you.
I am indebted to you,for life.
You've been there. No matter when I thought things would change, you let me know even from those little SMS's that you're there. And that your bond with me,your love for me,my importance to you will never change. You've always tried to make me feel secure, and confident about myself and my capabilities.
You've been my mother,sister,best friend when circumstances demanded.
You've always been, My Pillar.
Ladies and gentlemen, I now present to you the blog of this person,my pillar -- My sister Shruti-- to whom this post is dedicated to. May her honest and sincere words touch you all with the same love, it does to me.
Discover my best friend-- Here .
May god bless you,didi.