Monday, July 25, 2011

I was such a child.

I was such a child.
You were on my pedestal, your face was an inspiration. I was such a child.
You were someone who said 'hush,sweetheart' , and I smiled and kept quiet. I was such a child.
You subtly entwined my dreams along with yours, and it never dawned on my nerves. I was such a child.
I chased all those dreams, and worked towards something that was never to be mine. I was such a child.

Your home was apparently mine, however my voice could never be recognized there. I laughed it away with comical foolishness.
Your hands were to lead me to the better, but they always lay so cold, harsh and misleading on mine.
You said our love was native, I nodded like a child. I never belonged to your land.
Your impudent ignorance, I forgave on the names of Time.
Your immodest talent was applauded for by me, like a child's ultimate joy.
I was such a child.

Today,
your face mocks at my innocent faith,
your words in the past laugh boisterously priding on its hypocrisy.
While you my friend,
your body, your hands, your legs, your chest.... frisk through a nascent world,
a world you said was once your nightmare,
today you frisk, float, indulge and submerge into its layers,
...while my inspiration in you is as dead as my belief in your words.


 -Nil.

19 comments:

  1. Beautiful Nil. Sometimes I cant believe you just turned 17.

    Somewhere inside you is a grown up woman, wise beyond her years. hehehe..

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  2. @hAAthi: Why thank you so much,Rev! And hah, I guess there is one inside all of us ;-)


    @Maryam A.: Thank you!

    @The Nomad: Glad you think so, thank you :-)

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  3. ohemgee. 17? i thought you were in your twenties. You write beautifully :)

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  4. i am dittoing what haathi wrote....absolute ditto

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  5. @Charu: Thanks love!


    @KWP: Haha Twenties?! Not so much,yet :-) Why,thank you so very much!


    @PinkPatiyalaSis: I hope you ditto my thoughts about you coming to Delhi real soon,too : )
    <3

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  6. big words .. big thoughts
    excellent

    thats what makes a person BIG..
    well done

    Bikram's

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  7. orey tui toh shotti boro hoye geli puchke :-)
    beautifully written baby, couldn't believe it was coming from you!

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  8. @Bikram: Thank you so much for your kindness :-) Thrilled to know you liked it!



    @Mashi: Hahha kokhono na kokhon to hobar hi chilo :)

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  9. DUDE!! you posted this! nice nice! like i said before its kinda awesome!

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  10. COME BACK FROM DINNER. WE NEED TO SPEND TIME.

    P.S- hehe thanks sis ;)

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  11. :)

    i have been lurking around for a bit now.. but somehow today i had a strong urge to write..

    You are really good, you know!

    :)

    Just wanted to say that.

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  12. I sure do hope you lurk around more often, and thank you so very much. That was incredibly sweet and amazing to read after a long tiring day :)

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  13. dark. and beautiful.
    and to be frank, the last para was a little too much for me, hehe...wonderful

    mohit

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  14. YOU have been awarded.
    http://notcreativeenoughtothinkofone.blogspot.com/2011/07/first-award-post.html

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