I'm sick of finiding myself blogger templates. I need something that suits me, and I can't find it. It's useless.
I've been in a morbid, completely anti-social mood. For reasons that you wont blame me for. I'm getting annoyed when poeple are poking me about what's been up, because I'd really appreciate being left alone in a quiet bubble with loud music right now. Okay that makes no sense.
I'm going to ramble. So you have the choice of not reading it.
Are you still reading this? Whatever. Okay. Then, listen.
I don't want to go to school tomorrow. The four day long vacation has been... not a vacation at all. This Diwali was a bitch. A bitch that was almost like the world celebrating my agony. Almost everyone-including me- expected a bloody sentimental post after it, but my mind had other plans. And that was ramble. And that's exactly what I'm doing.
I'm taking space.
I'm exhausted with my head ramming over things that are just ending up screwing my head up. The song by Beatles- "Let it be" has and is going to be my motto for a while- till I get my shit together.
I have stopped giving a damn to people who don't give a damn about being there for me when I need them. And well.. I'm basically done with acting all Mother Teresa like. You want me to give a damn? You need to give a damn about me, other wise, Ciao. No seriously.
I should be doing Math now. I have tuition after school tomorrow. My tuition teacher is determined to make my life miserable.
I went and spent a LOT of time at my sisters' place today.. after a long time. It was amazing. And.. for once.. I wasn't bothered about the number of calls/ texts I was getting.
For all of you who I haven't responded to- I'm sorry. I shall get back to you guys soon, very soon. Just cut me some slack for a while, and we shall catch up in no time.
I realized mango ice cream is awesome. I realized that at times, it's okay to shut up and just.. be.
I'm excited to meet an old friend. But I'm just not excited about meeting people.
Yes, I'm so not making sense right now.
I want to huddle up in a blanket and sleep. I've been sleepy and cranky and not hungry at all since about two days. I hate eating. It makes me puke. And shit I sound so weird.
But sleep is good. Sleep is awesome.
I was watching 2012 today. I thought Mayans are stupid. I don't anymore. Actually maybe I still do. I don't care, right now. The movie disturbed me, and that did not help.
I've decided to not keep in touch with people who call me only when they need help.
I HATE PEOPLE WHO CAN'T FIGURE DIWALI IS OVER AND ARE STILL BURSTING CRACKERS. I AM SO SICK OF THE NOICE,PLEASE CUT IT OUT ALREADY.
No offence intended.
I'm going to go do some Maths right now, because my life sucks :)
I hope assholes like people who pick on 16 year old's pockets go and burn in hell.
And to the rest of you, the World.
Chill.
My next post shall be much more calmer, sensible, and would have less BS.
GET ME ICE.
PISSED OFF.
-Nil.
P.S- This post was about saying Hi, right? Well, Hello.
Dear Disturbed Sis,
ReplyDeleteChill. Seriously, chill.
You don't know how I spent my diwali do you? Well, if you get time, check my blog, I posted it in the exact same Rant Form like you have, this one :)
Sleep is bliss. Pure bliss...
"I HATE PEOPLE WHO CAN'T FIGURE DIWALI IS OVER AND ARE STILL BURSTING CRACKERS. I AM SO SICK OF THE NOICE,PLEASE CUT IT OUT ALREADY." I hate them too, those dumbfucks.
LOL@The ending. Hi!
And, I don't think you'll ever be done with acting all mother teresa like, cuz well, that's pretty much what you are. :P
Btw, I saw Godfather I&II AND Inception in the 2 days that followed Diwali. Yay! :)
Plus, may your next post NOT be calmer and cleaner and whatever, cuz I like it better when its just you and your, as you say, BS. :)
Love[Retardation Included],
Freak Brother.
Mango Ice cream sucks. I should be doing math too. I don't want to school tomorrow either. But hey that's life. Deal with it. One day you'll realize you have barely a month left of school. and that feels weird. VERY weird.
ReplyDeleteki boli aami ??? ki boli to get you un -pissed !!
ReplyDeleteAwww >:D< >:D< we all need spaces sometimes and so do I so u deserve it.....but pissed off with selfish ppl- thats the harsh reality- i went thru it and so are u .....sleep is sometimes a solution trust me babe just sleep off and u will be relaxed
ReplyDeleteAnd hope my jhaddu ki jhappi makes u better >:D<
Love u gal :)
I like this post...can relate to it often when I get in my spiral of grumpiness and mindfog.
ReplyDeleteHope you get the space that you need and the company you need and the peace you need and that those crackers stop (sooo noisy and disruptive - and I am scared of them lol) and anything else you want to stop, stops. And hugs. Or not (I don't want to be hit :P)
@Freak Brother: Mantaaaaaaaaa! Hahhaha awww. Yeah mayun, I guess I just never get over being "frantical" and retarded. Which is okay I guess :P
ReplyDeleteGodfather is EPIC babe. It's the SHIZZZ!
Yeap yeap shall hop into your blog in no time at all :) Awwwww. Yes, I shall sound just like what you'd rather ;)
muuucchh lowwee,
retarded sis.
@Ujjwal: I've been dealing with it there, dear boy. What feels weird is I DONT REMEMBER YOUR FUCKING FACE.
ReplyDeleteAnddd. Mango ice cream is nice.
@Sulagana: Come to Dilli :D
@Scribbling girl: Aww honey you make my day being such a sweetheart that you are! :)
ReplyDeleteI love you too!
@Wicked: hahaha oh Cathy you'll never be hit! ;) hehe i know.. i figured a lot of people can relate to this. lol pissed off is something we all like, anyway :P
yay ! it mentions the noise of crackers ! seriously its irritating ! :D
ReplyDeleteHaina?!!?
ReplyDeleteit's bloody annoying man! heyy glad to see you back on my page =)
Nonu ponu shonu monu tonu! Muah!
ReplyDeleteWhat? It isn't only you who can be random eh?
ReplyDeleteEyloooooooooo...It's been a long time since I stopped by and when I did little Nil is rambling. That be so not good. Well, lil one chill..put on your ear phones and play your fave playlist and dance. dance all night long.
ReplyDeleteP.S I hate crackers as well.Thank goodness am home where there be no crackers. I so hate 'em. Noise polluting, sick making lil non-living monsters they be.
You have a great day hun :)
litchi ice cream rockssssss too. i love mango alphonso sorbet at baskin robbins.. YummM!@#!@#(*!@(
ReplyDeletethis post of yours = me when im pms-ing
hehehehehehe
I HATE people bursting crackers post diwali too. in fact, the loud ones really annoy me on diwali too. the festival is about lights, rangoli, decoration, sweets, food.. etc. ok food makes you puke now. no food talks for a while.
but iv been doing nothin but eating all sorts of sweets. arrey jalebi reh gai !
GOL GAPPE., hmmmmm..
ok sorry.
well, HIIIIIIIIIIII ! :)
good you wrote all this. feels good later na
xoxo
haha. i'm glad you vented on this post. i'm feeling the same way you are right now. but instead of not going to school i don't want to go to work.
ReplyDeleteah! thanks for the venting!
hello! :)
http://ohtobeamuse.com
Don't hit me Nil... but this stuff is quite endearing... the way you jump from subject to subject keeping the intensity of your emotions intact.
ReplyDeleteBy the way, I like how it says "Pour out your thoughts on mine" there. :)
@TBG: Heheh.. oh no not at all! :)
ReplyDelete@Nads: Naaaaaaaaaaaads! :) Hii. So glad to see you here after sucha long time. haha yeah I was rambling alright! still am i guess :|
yes, music's been the one that's been helping me chill, tbh. So yeah.
Aaah. yeah I know. The loud crazkers.. they spoil it. The grace of the occasion..
anyhow, thanks for stoppin by, and you have a great day, too! :)
@diiip: hahaha your comments have always been adorable hon :) arrey I've been eating now. Like a little too much of laddoos :/ motichur! now u get the picture?
ReplyDeleteYeah I know, venting it out always makes it better..
and hiiii :) haha
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@Cheryl: Ugh I guess work's worse na? damn cheryl! never mind okay. The winter break's on its way right :)
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@Zlaek: Heylo there! :) Glad to see you on my page. heard about you from oRange* =)
haha aww really? that's so sweet of you! you seem like a charming lady yourself :)
Haha thanks! Im glad You pured out your thoughts on mine ;)
Please do keep visiting :)
much love,
Nil.
^^^Does that mean you're online yo?
ReplyDeleteHi Cherr =)
YES. Bitch I AM. WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN?
ReplyDeleteROHAAN. I miss you, you piece of shit! I haven't received a reply. I'm concerned about the last one. You know what I mean.
Just call me soon man. I've been in a slight mess.. couldn't answe last time you called.. been a lil in the undergrounds.
And please tell me you're still online? [It's not my fault that you come online in teh wrong time you know]
lol.
take care babe,
love,
cherry.
{I MISSED BEING CALLED THAT}
Rants. Just think of the joy you'll feel when you'll be reading this again many years on.
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