Monday, December 31, 2012

On the 366th day.

To the 366th day of 2012,

you're the only gap, the only thin line between what happened in the last 8760 hours, and what will happen in the next 8760 hours. You're the only manifestation of cognizance and expectation, now. You're the only source of remembering myself from yesterday and waiting for myself, tomorrow. You overwhelm me, a little. You overwhelm me because you're the only day of the year that makes me feel forgetful, inevitably; every year. I struggle to remember the little details that never seemed little enough at the time of being, and yet they flutter away to a very forgotten space of my consciousness today. The only difference is perhaps... that usually, I come around to remembering. Except, this year; I don't.

Apart from the obvious, this year feels like the kind I'd want to forget with coercion, and yet remember with all my heart and soul. This year started with a note of the perfect new year, however the 'perfect' did hit its ocean bed, not just once, but many a times. But then again, this year reached it's peaks too. This year pushed me just a little more to realize myself a little more, this year made me lose out on people and eventually find them by the end of it. They weren't lost, after all. Close enough, but not enough.
This year bought in people; oh yes, there were new faces. Blessed be the coincidence (or not),  but those faces were needed terribly in my hour count. Thank you, for walking in.

I wouldn't want to be unfair. Every year has its best hair days too, so did this one. This year's been one of the biggest milestones to achieving what I'd set out for; this year was me at my headstrong best. This year had me wandering, and yet not being lost. This year had me lost, and yet willing to wander some more. I don't want to mention each and every memory this time, like I usually do every year; simply because a certain primary element of those memories was missing most of the year. But then again, maybe next year's new year entourage post will have me quoting more memories than ever. But what matters is the feeling I have within me, right now. This year has tested me. It's seen me at my fragile best, it's seen me at my strongest. Things fell apart this year; I walked on to newer things, this year.

So there, 2012. On the 366th day of you, this is me still smiling for you. You had to happen. You needed to happen. You needed to happen just so I realized a few; very few but indispensable epiphanies that were knocking on my door, for a year now. You had to happen. You just had to.

Happy new year, World.


-Nil.

24 comments:

  1. Wish you a Happy New Year. :)
    May the next year remain as perfect till the end as it would start.

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    1. Thank you, Ajay. A happy new year to you too. :)

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  2. Nil. Much love to you. :) Happy new year.

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    1. Sammaayy. Muchings of loving to you too! Happy new year :*

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  3. Have a great year ahead...Happy New Year dear :)

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  4. Happy new year to you too! :) Hope it turns out great! :)

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    1. Thank you! I hope for the very same, for you :)

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  5. Happy new year to you and family and everyone around you :)

    Bikram's

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  6. That was the loveliest eulogy(Not sure that's a proper term but hopefully you get it) to 2012 I've read!
    The thing is,I often forget the best hair-days crying about the bad ones but I'm going to try and improve this year!
    Happy New Year girl!:)

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    1. Aw thank you, Talitha! So kind. A very very happy new year to you too :)

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  7. Damn, I actually forgot this year had 366 days. Thanks for reminding me.
    Happy New Year.

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    1. Haha I did, too. A friend reminded me. Thank you, right back atcha.

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  8. Ah you, with your perfect writing.
    Happy 2013, I'm sure this one will be as memorable as 2012.
    Much love :*

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    1. Aww. Good to see you here, bro :* Thank you. The very same to you!

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  9. Sweeeeeeeeetie I am back to blogging :D
    And I super misssed you.....how you been ?
    And happppppiest new year my genius :D

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    1. Wooooooots! SO happy to see you here, gorgeous :* You were terribly missed. I've been just fine. Happy new yeaaaar :)

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  10. Haaw. If you keep talking like that one of these days the old year will just refuse to leave! I like 2013 more though. Its been ten days. And i have been promoted in life. Twice :D

    Explanations later.
    Take care

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    1. The old year has left, m'pal. And yes, 2013 sounds like a good year!

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    2. It had too. Thats why.
      Othwise, with your extravagant control over words, it would refuse to. If it wished. :)

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    3. And dont u dare call me pal. Not till u can promise me the frndship of a lifetime.

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