Monday, May 21, 2012

Mind bereft.

You know how people talk about how the soul leaves the body after death... Yeah, what happens when the mind leaves the body while alive and breathing? When motor skills resign to an abominable lull of procrastination. When the fingers mull over the same object not realizing it's sharp cuts, it's bald surface, it's porous texture, its purpose. When your dry lips don't remember the tongue, when the throb in your head isn't pain, anymore. When there's a miasma of  botheration and a nagging solution in the back of your mind, but alas the mind has left with the aircraft in your subconscious sense and the solution is tightly pressed with harsh hands around its mouth.

You understand it's an ephemeral feeling, but the arrogant speed of time makes you jittery and insecure. You've stopped acting, and every sense of reason is mating with every slightest hint of emotion. While your vision was capable of registering every color in erstwhile times, what you see now is a filter of sepia.
There aren't watches around you, and yet you hear a rather loud ticking. Rude and loud noise of aircrafts taking off somewhere very much around your being scream within your hearing range.
A decision of sort is awaited, and it humors you that you don't know what the question is; that is to be decided upon and yet, you know the answer.

Yeah, what does indeed happen when the mind leaves the body while alive and breathing? 
When you know your mind is in that aircraft in front of you, but your heart wouldn't let you take a step towards it ; When your mind takes off with that aircraft and you've finally, finally lost your mind.




(Don't ask why, just don't. Certain pictures don't leave you with an option but to write. And circumstances help, if not anything. )
-Nil.

22 comments:

  1. This is beautiful, Nil. Trust me, exquisite it is. I like the weaving of words with general phenomena.

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    1. Thank you Akanksha, I'm thrilled :)

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  2. And this is why the airport feels more like home.

    Haha, this was awesome. I felt my own mind drifting away. Then I had to return and read the rest of your post :)

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    1. I know right, the airport always overwhelms in the a sweet and yet bitter way. Strange, eh.

      Aw thanks Zeeebsterrrr =)

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  3. amazing yaar... what a thought... extra ordinary... loved it :)

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  4. I have that feeling each time I look at the aircraft sitting at delhi airport , on the day when i have to fly back ot uk.


    and let me say OH MY , how can you think like that .. wonderful thoughts i will say .. you usewords so nicely .. hats off to you Nil..

    take care and keep smiling

    Ps:- please dont mind my spellings :)

    Bikram's

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    1. Why, thank you so much Bikram! You're always so generous with compliments :)

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  5. I have had this feel once in my life, while is was flying from delhi to mumbai. the mind and heart refused to sync together. and that 45min journey is something i can never forget, such was the time in my life.
    u write very well :)


    sarah

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    1. I can relate to that :) Thank you so much, do drop by :)

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  6. great writing...and definitely something everyone these times can relate to...

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  7. Every time I read your blog, I get an urge to write. Brilliant imagery!

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    1. Why, then please please do NG! we'd all love to read! Thank you :)

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  8. Wonderful interpretation of a picture. You're growing better and better as a writer :)

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    1. Charu! So good to see you here after so long! Thank you. You've always been so nice :))

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  9. Like always your post brings a smile to my face and your words- they remain with me for a long long time. And love the picture.

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    1. Sammaayy. Too much niceness you be! Thank you :')

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  10. It left on a jet plane, the mind is missing. I miss my mind :P

    Mast read :D


    Cheers,
    Blasphemous Aesthete

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    1. Gaaah, same here, Blasphemous. Just about same here :|

      Thank you :)

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