Winer Rains & My retarded friends : )

I was kissed Good Morning by the sound of rain pouring outside, it was chilly cold and I was nicely tucked in my bed. Wow,what a beautiful start to the day. They say it right when they say that the beginning of the morning  concludes the day :) Well,sometimes, it's true anyway!

So while I was trying to mush over the beautiful day and all the plans about how I might spend it [Yes,even during Pre boards I make plans :) ] my phone beeped and said "Too many messages waiting. Delete few".

Yes, the gadgets never leave us,no matter how engulfed we might be in nature.

So,I've seen.

So,then I got ready and went to school with a Super happy-go-lucky mood. Greeted my friends with the usual. [Why 'Greeted' ain't quite the word,no!] anyway, so I saw everybody around me frantically reading notes, I flipped a bit, why on the English Exam man?! Remya, was the only one who seemed calm and normal, revising through some books. Thanks :|

So anyway, English Exam happened. I loved it,totally. FINALLY they gave a poem worth Section A.

The ole well known peom by Shakespeare "Shall I compare thee to a summer day?" 

Pretty common of a sonnet, but never the less much better of a poem to challenge the creativity of students.

So anyway,after that, we were just being random. Roaming around the school field, Shreyansha crying,Megha nagging,Monica laughing,Remya and I fooling around and Kartavya being the tamed lad that he is :P

So all in all presenting you our chota mota Freakshow group =]

The freakshow group I love so much,It would totally be incomplete without ANY of you!
So..After random steps,I caught up with Joy,and got home.. Got online, was there for a while.
I consider today a good day cause there was this 'spill' which finally fixed things between this friend and me ; )
So yeah. Then ROB came online :P We had a usual chat,sigh that boy won't change :) So,I'm on a mission for him yo! He was kidding about it,however I --the inevitable have taken it up seriously. Heye Buddy, time for you to hide :P I'm on the mission,and I freakin' mean it >:D
Anyway,so after logging off,I did the other chores,work,text books,etc.

After that...I had a nice evening,yes a very nice one : ) It's proved, I LOVE Satyajit Ray! His movies are just, too brilliant. Simply. And the funny part is, these random movies you watch with your dear ones,they leave a hug on your heart, a memory to last, a feeling to cheerish,and a thought that gets you smiling out of the blue.
I feel lucky today,I do.
And I'm just going to be so, today,oh yes,and feel good about things. Cause you know, even though it's an obvious fact, but time and again the tides of time keep reminding me, that at the end, things get okay. No,really, the cliched "It'll be okay with time"- -it works. It heals things. Time can be a best friend, I realized that.

Right now,I'm on Sulagana's blog. Yes,I LOVE the first song in her play list. So everytime I write a blog post,I open her blog a tab and listen to the music : )
I'm so weird. Jaani,Jaani :P


After this,I plan to study,and then,maybe read a novel..And thennn..Sleep : )
You see,nobody's celebrating Lohri in my colony :'( Sad,I know, so anyhow you guys,Happy Lohri!!

I've been doing quite a bit of writing lately,and TONS of scribbling. :I shall put'em up soon  : )
Noww,I'm on Remya's blog listening to 'Fireflies' by Owl City. LISTEN to it,you guys!
It's one of my favourites on my play list :)

There,that's all I have for today. I shall update soon!!

yes,my retarded school life with absolutely retarded friends. I freaking love you guys!

Clear skies y'fellas!

Nil.

My faith on you.

I've realized my faith on you. I've realized my trust,my love and my hopes on you. I have surrendered my fears,I've embraced your promise,I've let out my heart and felt you soak in every thing,every word.
Yes,I've realized my faith on you.

I've never preached you,I have never been submissive,I have never let it be a single sided decision,I have never let the difference of our thoughts war.
I have always loved you,with the very intensity,with the very feelings,with the very sincerity and that shall remain till the day I surrender my heart beat to Heaven.

I can feel your pain even at the slightest wince,I have felt your pain in the brave smiles,I have felt your anguish when you've seen me stepping into something wrong,I have heard your tears when you tried to wipe mine.
I have kissed your love when you tried to hide it, I have seen your love when you shout at me,I have seen your care when you let me alone,I have felt your love shield me from every wrong,Yes,I have.

I'll not lie today,I'll accept the very to you-- My faith on you has never been more sure and ardent on you before,it has always been shy it has always been scared..But today,My Faith on you is the strongest,is the unbreakable,is the unthinkable,and is at it's epitome.
My faith on you.

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A post to every person I love, but just a little more dedicated to someone today..

I love you all,Very much.
-Nilanjana.

An Absolutely unproductive post :D

So hello, ladies and gentlemen :D
Like my good for nothing scribbling above? ^^ :D
Updating after a week almost....So sorry about that, it's NOT easy for a kid to deal with Preboards and then Boards for the first time,okay?
So. What's up with all of you? I've been upto nothing much lately, just apart from textbooks :|
Sheesh.
I Just came back from school. It was my first pre board today. *Tada Music*
*Victorious looks* 
So, it was SST,and quite a Bomb exam. I have No,absolutely No idea to why was I all weird yesterday. But,anyhow.

I've started writing a new piece of fiction :) It's on a scandal and everything. Only through with the introduction yet,sadly didn't have the time to proceed. [*Gives evil eyes to the History book*]
But,I shall continue it today. And put it up very soon for you guys to spill on what you think of it :)

Right now..I'm doing nothing productive. Actually,i am. I'm listening to Celtic violins..Duelling!
You can hear it here . [Ramit and Queen,owe you for the Hyperlink. HAHA :P] ... So this thing i was listening to, It's pretty cool,and peppy :) i like how it gets all jumpy from the quarter. I hope you guys like it!

I plan to.....Idk, go eat lunch. Then,just do nothing. And then do nothing again :D
Sounds good to me!
And yeah,whatever,If wish permits,I'll probably check out the Math binder for some time..
[*The math book gets a pitiful look*]
These books,I tell you. They should be replaced by novels,and good authors. They should.
Aryabhatta and everything should be....err..Ignored for a while,you know?
So,yeah,I'm writing gibberish, I know. But that's okay right. Frustration leaked from the very crevices of my body till yesterday! I'm doing a good job venting it out! Haina? :S

So okay,cutting out the conversation which is leading to nowhere, You guys update Me with what's up?
Okay?

And a special msg to Fai who'll be leaving Blogger soon, prolly today : My dear,you've seriously introduced a completely new way of writing. I love your blog,and heck will miss it like crazy once it's deleted. I so wish we'd started following each other much earlier,but anyhow.
I wish you all the best,and sure do hope somday you wake up in the morning and decide to get on Blogger again.
Take care :)

Lots of love,
Nil.

2010

In retrospect to last year, I feel strange cause i don't quite remember anything clearly. It seems to me like a year where I was very absent minded,vague memories, voices pretty distant. It reminds me of a movie going on while I just try to remember what happened last..

I know there were moments which have marked milestones in my life..Moments when I could swear I'd never forget-- moments of ultimate euphoria. There have been new friendships which have strengthened themselves with silly jokes,funny lines,sarcasm,love,fights. I know these friendships will be remembered through out.. A lifetime.

There have been sadness engulfed with incompetency screaming and tearing my mind.

But also,there have been times and again, when I've realized I stand as someone distinct with eyes that meet yours. Who is confident,standing upright,positive about herself and what she holds.

I have seen the real people under their masks this last year,today- I can count my closest friends on my fingers- I couldn't be more proud about the fact. I know who stand by me, I know who will.

2009 has made me witness affection from people I least expected to. I have confided in people,who don't even know my address. I have encountered times where my loyalty and honesty were to be proven by myself,and I have the remembrance of my worst days and hours.

I have memories of smiles-that cheered me up, of silly dances during classes which would crack me up laughing,of taking cases of the loser-group along with a close friend [;)]... I have so many memories--now that I think of it..

I didn't dream much this year, when I slept-I slept dreamless hours of sleep. At times,reality was so appalling that my escape became ignorance. But...also that truth; the reality that surfaced gradually,was bravely accepted by me and can be proud that within time I welcomed them as they are; without efforts of forging them or anything.

I'm proud of myself for that.

I have written so many parts of my life in fictious short stories and poems this year that people have appreciated and applauded for the courage of boldness and transparency in them. Thank you all of you for that. I wouldn't have published/shared them ever if I wasn't encouraged by people like you.

In the end,no matter how blurr my memories of '09 might have seemed,I know I've lost and won many battles..And all of then have kissed me Goodbye to push me towards a brighter daylight to realize myself a bit more,and more, and to truly exist in my full capacity for the many more years to come.

:)

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Here are short msgs for all of you Blogger Buddies!

Remya: Babe,thanks for being there when it was really needed :) There were things I couldn't have done without you... Thanks for standing right there,always. All my love.

Rohaan & Mrill: I effing love you guys. Seriously, you guys make my day complete after the crazy conversations!

Charu: Dear,thank you for appreciating and acknowledging my work so much. It's been lovely to be friends with you :)

Sequira: I miss you (: Happy new year!

Ramit: Oh my god,you make me want to blog =D Hugs!

Dipti: I love your blog:) Keep blogging!!

Ric: Dude,it's been awesome knowing you. It has!

oRange*: I love you, oh and your bloggggggg! =) keep writing sweets!

Sulagana: Babe,you're too awesome. Keep runnin'! Huggss!

QM: Update! Your blog is awesome(:

UjSen: Thank youuuuu for Reading my blog and mailing me feedbacks about my stuff when i really need it!

Fai: You've inspired a new way of writing. Good going :)

Pranav: Happy new year you! Kaha hai?!

Twisted elegance: Miss you on blogger! C'mon,say cheese to being regular this year! ;)

Rahul: I sure do pray for your new life [;)] to be magical and beautiful.

Mallika: Yo! Love you! :*

Yemiledu: keep writing dear :)

Diu: Where are youuu? :O

Neha: Come on Blogger!

Vegabond: Hey! Thanks for following my blog :)

Vijay: Kaha ho sir? :)

Manjari,Sid,Liza Rego,Celestial devil,Ashley Brown: Thanks for followin' my blog, you guys:)

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Yes, I think that covers it all :P

A happy new year to all of you,

and may god bless :)

Love you all.

Nil (: